Is just only my lil feeling..

suddenly i felt that...
everyone who's beside me..
are not caring me anymore..

I really don't know what to do, with myself..
I don't even know who to tell with..
even best friends family treat me so..

Everybody seems like busy of their own life..
what I tell them..
they just like didn't listen to it..
I felt I'm like a death people..
normal human being can't hear me.

I'm really tired and sick of it
I think I had enough

I thought that..
when my best friend sent me an apologize message, said that she would change cause she know how much she had hurt me, she would change it for me.
but today..
something that she had did really do made me disappointed.

today..
i went to toilet..
something kinda make people nervous thing happen on me..
I was there getting help from someone..
while I asking other student that weather she could get help in it , I saw my best friend was at there looking into the mirror and tiding her hair, and having great conservation with other friends...
And her face emotion show me that just like..nothing happen.

that's really hurt me so bad..
I was here begging people for help..
but what does she doing ?

I silent for few minutes..
they all curious..
but I don't wanna mention it out..
cause I don't wanna spoil our friendship..just because of what I feel.

_____________________________________

Just now my mum give me a call..
she wanted me cheak for her the air ticket.

After I found it..
I phone her back..
and told her everything that she want me to did for her I done.
afterthat..
I tell her that..
my leg that get injured last time..
suddenly turn bad..
it's getting more serious then yesterday..
but than..
she answer me another non-related stuff..

I get hurt..
in only one day..
I can see out two people that i trusted and believed most..
are not really caring me ...

I felt miserable...


so sorry..
I really do feel disappointed
and I have to shout it out..
if not..
I think I'm going to explore..

→ Happy V♥day

This is the place where I pass my Vday...with family =.=

I like to be at this place.. cause it fill of romance
most important is all Ang Mo Lang no PILAKS !

paiseh too dark there light effect not that good.
between..want some ? ^^




Sugar bun's Fish Fillet... it cost me only 10bucks ..
taste not bad ^^



Banana split

IT's really A BORING Vday...

So i decided to show you how i passed it.. x^^


ok I know Im a lamer =.=

→ 我的 朋友

与新 Classmate 相处了那么久，总算有感情了
PS：是朋友的那种感觉 =)
原本以为，会不习惯
怕是性格和不来的关系

可是，我的直觉错了
认识他们以后，我....重新评估了他们... (:
座位位于课室 90度 的我
慢慢地...发现了大家的好
有的，很友善
有的，很乐于助人
有的，很幽默
有的，很沉默寡言
他们的人为..　　都超乎我所想象 ! ^^

可惜...
有一天
有人告诉我一个坏消息...

座位位于我隔壁隔壁那个大老对就是他 =.=

就快要转学到Canada去了
［有钱也不必有钱到酱吧... =.= ］
朋友之间，可能是有感情了吧..
听了消息之后　心情有点沉重....
超不舍得的！
他走了以后　以后还有谁是我可以欺负的　WOrRRrrRr！

欺负他真是超爽的咯！
他又不会生气!
他也蛮玩得的!
超够朋友!!^^

真不舍得 =(
而且Horr...　我还知道他蛮多秘密的哦 ^^ Shhh
哈哈..
每次给我整，　是有点可怜啦.. ^^"
哈哈哈
谁叫他酱不幸运和我同排坐 ^^

→ 初4 的生活

初4　的生活，　
并没有他们口中所谓的 Honey Year 来得酱爽。

4经济班 [4E , a.k.a 4Eska ] is ["E"conomy] actually
虽然没有　4科学班 [4S a.k.a 4SIAO]好
但是，要付出的代价不少。
我好象开始厌倦了这种生活
很累　真的很累

每天要5点起身，　已经是要我的命酱了。
每天都要呆在学校直3.30pm　才可以放学
又不是4pm可以到家那种
因为跟SchoolBus　回家的关系，　往往都是5pm　才到家
超累的好不好
NAH.......! 6pm　又补习咯
跟老师车回家又要　10pm　才到家［星期日都要补　SIAO的！］
10pm　才吃晚餐，　你讲啊肥不肥?
然后就收拾书包做功课咯
堆积如山的功课，至少要做到三更半夜
最早都要12.30am　才进房休息
隔天又要5am起身
机器人　mehhhh
眼带眼圈不深才假
难得假期可以睡迟点，老妈又要在那里唠叨
老弟最在行的加盐家醋功，还不使出来用？　
让我没好日子过..

一个人在楼下［书房］的感觉
的确不爽
为什么每一个都可以上楼上睡觉,
我却要呆在那里?
我也是怕鬼的咯......

我真的真的很累
可是我找不到人来诉苦
即使找到...他们都是随便敷衍我就算
最讨厌人家敷衍我的!
从来都没有人真正关心过我［老妈，还好啦。有点点的关心］
但是也不能莫名其妙去跟人诉苦啊
都是跟熟悉的人讲啦
可是他们都忙着干他们的事
哪里会有人会理会我这条...
莫名其妙...

老师你也得通情达理一点嘛..
放假还要给鬼死酱多功课 !
老师我知道你给功课给到很爽
但是你爽到也要有 LIMIT 嘛！

That's only two question in both of this page

闲的哦...
每次都要弄到我的眼泪不禁夺眶而出
出来了还要让我隔天毁容
眼睛不像眼睛
像叉烧包

我要感谢BlogSpot
让我可以在这里发泄
不像其它的网站，　有 word limited 的

讲酱多　还是一样要过日子
只是觉得
有真正关心我的人/我需要他们关心的人　关心下..
也许我会爽下　^^呵呵
应该是说,　我会看得开点...
至少有人终于理解我的苦嘛 =(