Is just only my lil feeling..

suddenly i felt that...
everyone who's beside me..
are not caring me anymore..

I really don't know what to do, with myself..
I don't even know who to tell with..
even best friends family treat me so..

Everybody seems like busy of their own life..
what I tell them..
they just like didn't listen to it..
I felt I'm like a death people..
normal human being can't hear me.

I'm really tired and sick of it
I think I had enough

I thought that..
when my best friend sent me an apologize message, said that she would change cause she know how much she had hurt me, she would change it for me.
but today..
something that she had did really do made me disappointed.

today..
i went to toilet..
something kinda make people nervous thing happen on me..
I was there getting help from someone..
while I asking other student that weather she could get help in it , I saw my best friend was at there looking into the mirror and tiding her hair, and having great conservation with other friends...
And her face emotion show me that just like..nothing happen.

that's really hurt me so bad..
I was here begging people for help..
but what does she doing ?

I silent for few minutes..
they all curious..
but I don't wanna mention it out..
cause I don't wanna spoil our friendship..just because of what I feel.

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Just now my mum give me a call..
she wanted me cheak for her the air ticket.

After I found it..
I phone her back..
and told her everything that she want me to did for her I done.
afterthat..
I tell her that..
my leg that get injured last time..
suddenly turn bad..
it's getting more serious then yesterday..
but than..
she answer me another non-related stuff..

I get hurt..
in only one day..
I can see out two people that i trusted and believed most..
are not really caring me ...

I felt miserable...


so sorry..
I really do feel disappointed
and I have to shout it out..
if not..
I think I'm going to explore..